Its been a year since we graduated and man never have I learned, felt, saw, and realized, and experienced so many things.
The hard part wasn’t going to a different school, if that was it I would’ve been well normal! Moving out was okay until I realized something…
I guess the worst part was how my family fell apart, seeing my mom suffer. I At first before moving away I hated my life noone would even remember to ask if si was ok? My best guy friend who I always hung out with totally started forgetting about me, I mean thanks bud I wasnt in need of some bomb ass friends who would go through just about the hardest thing… Ohhh but wait I had another best friend who I.e… Look carefully at what I just said I called everyday cuz I felt bad.
Sometimes I wonder why I’m writing this there is no point really. Except for the fast that I beat myself about it everyday. Every fucking day….
I work so much and help people in need, I’ve gotten closer to my Mom. But at the end of the day I have this hate towards the people who I love profoundly the main two being my dad and sister.
Really this entire year all I’ve done was work ALOT, go to school, and try to help my Mom everyway possible…
But I forgot to mention Martin because of him my family laughs I laugh and I was able to to give my Mom a mothers day card that made her cry and I hugged and kissed her. Because of him I don’t feel like I’m the one that has to try. Because of him there its someone I can tell what’s wrong at 12 at night why I cry so much, how crazyI’m becoming.
I’ve maintained myself for a year and I’ve made it on my own. I’m proud of myself. I still have alot of issues to resolve… But I know I can make it. I just wish I could forget everyone ever exsisted because even if I would tell them this it would be all my fault. I’m not saying done of it want mine but I sure ass hell did try.
Just remember this everyone life takes everyone on different paths, today you may not need anyone but one day you will and when you do just remember that day you decided to judge our stick your nose up cuz you thought you were better. Everything in life h you pay. Trust me I’ve leavened that this year and if you don’t believe me just ask my dad lol
